Tuesday, February 19, 2008

shipwrecked

My wisdom tooth is growing out, but in the wrong angle, and it's remarkably painful. Like, there's this searing pain at the secret swollen corner of my mouth, coupled with a huge-ass ulcer and it makes me want to dig the entire thing out with a scalpel or something that will result in less pain and lots of deep red viscous blood for my effort. Visible and instant gratification, don't you know?

Some things, you just know. And when you know you have lost something for all time, which is intricately and inextricably tied to your own notion of self-worth, you start to question in a manner that does not want nor care for the truth, masking a selfish and childish request to return to the golden times, for it to breathe life again, as it once did, and so beautifully.

But as you have told me, it cannot be this way, nor that way. And I listen, I heed, I abide, out of much love, and as such, in time, I promise that it, or the grand sum of ways, will no longer be mine.

blueprint

I will like to spend my days, as though they are my own, which I mostly end up doing in halves, for duty beckons, and I am answering its clarion call. Soon enough! I am also a veteran procrastinator.

fresh monodies

the month of february
curling up
I can't believe it's possible to be nostalgic over...
I changed my mind! I don't want the 25th of Feb to...
trajectory
the tower, ohrwurm.
weird shit
justifying melodrama, the poisonous thrill of hate...
warmth (despite dreary skies)
and so it is

previous rants

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treatises on life

arty jen
betty boop
carmentica
charming-linn
chasing snowy cars
cheeky lynn
cheryliciously glam
clean and cute
cyclist-mad bass
darling dominic
feisty jing
fellow ditz-sista/porkSTAR
hail mary!
hell's kitchen
hero on the beach
h-Euge heart
hunky lenny
lipgloss queen
little cheryl
live n learn, baby
lolita lou
loony loon
mr popular
musically dan
m y s t j
phringe
princess tania
roger smurf
runaway pigeon
sabotage king jeremiah
sibling angst1
sibling angst2
spector dan
spunky tian
steffy bunny
sun-sunzzz
teeny wee-nee
weeeee, leonard!
yangtze yang'en

frivolous pursuits

for shallow ppl
for very geeky ppl
for the truly bored
spun prose
binary thoughts
past imprints
some stamps
montage of images
other memories

mulling over

And there were phlegmatic souls.