Monday, April 14, 2008

so.

Last night, before going to bed, I was watching the M.H./Joffrey Ballet's reconstruction of Stravinsky's le Sacre du printemps in preparation for my lesson observation by VIPs on Wed, relishing with great delight the awkward postures of the dancers, the 'knock-kneed Lolitas', and of course, the wondrous discordant primal music which still leaves me fascinated after so many years.

Hence, I dreamt of war (The Rivalry of the Tribes, it must have had been) with people dressed in the same smocks of rectangles and circles, pounding the ground with savage fury, to the time and tune of danse sacrale. Everyone was grouped in circles of ten, and all gathered at Newton Circus for a showdown against the enemy (which consisted of 'normal people' dressed in jeans). Yes, very bizarre.

Then, there's the other encounter, where just before I slept, the sounds of the night were drifting in, the wailing voices of those carrying out Buddhist funeral rites, and the last thing I thought of was Handel's Concerto Grosso Op.6/12.

Then, I dreamt of taking this bus with my sister and brother, tumbling down Marymount Road, going around huge mushrooms with lights on them, where the idiotic bus driver took a wrong turn, and we ended up somewhere really out of this world. My sister was hungry, so was I, and all this bus driver could do was to stare at me with limpid dark eyes with black sockets, as he drove on - half on the road, the other half hanging over a precipice. Suddenly, bestowed with god-like energy that can only come from rage, I got off the bus and carried it on my shoulder through office buildings and escalators, and stomped back to Marymount Road. Then, I flung 18 dollars at his lap, (yes, my bus had a taxi meter) and screamed at him to go get some sleep, don't you know it's so dangerous on the road, you nearly killed my siblings, and you ought to be glad I'm still paying you for the time you wasted languishing and flopping around while you bleated lamenting apologies with your eyes, flounced off, and began the arduous task of crossing the road which had whizzing vehicles which seemed to barely touch the ground. At this point in time, my two little siblings suddenly grew brains of a peacock, and they looked to the left before crossing, even though the oncoming traffic was from the right. And they nearly got knocked down by tankers, each fronted by a mysterious veiled woman chanting Buddhist sutras, and to say I was furious and scared out of my wits is an understatement. And all this took place in the backdrop of Handel's Op.6/12, which kept repeating, repeating, stuck in that eternal loop and I swear I was going out of my head. Then I woke up, so seething from the dream, and the earworm of Handel still hasn't gone away..!

Lately, I keep dreaming about work. Which is bad. Because I don't really want to hear it when I wake up, but I have to. It's for work. (I'm setting exam papers now, so I have to listen to different extracts over and over again to set questions, doublecheck answers, is that instrument really a flute or recorder [I have shit ears when it comes to orchestration], that kinda thing.)

Uh, so, yes. Basically, I need to stop listening or watching or reading about these things before I sleep. So yes, for at least half an hour, I will not do anything. I will vegate. No music. But i can immerse myself in happy things. Which also includes music. Hmmm.

Okay, end of verbal diarrhoea.

I can't wait for the end of the week to come. (Assuming I get through this week, that is) It will herald the (very early) beginnings of a long-awaited (admittedly, false in the long run) freedom to come! I can actually begin to meet my friends (whom I have not met for several weeks) and have some semblance of a life! Joy!

blueprint

I will like to spend my days, as though they are my own, which I mostly end up doing in halves, for duty beckons, and I am answering its clarion call. Soon enough! I am also a veteran procrastinator.

fresh monodies

One more month to the end of practicum! The end is...
RANT
things are so crazy now
not so much immune, but ambivalent.
the waiting game.
gesticulating wildly, long-suffering continuum
that place one treads
the insidious invisible influenced
restless and in pain = whinge post
the past week or so, of the ties that hold and bind

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treatises on life

arty jen
betty boop
carmentica
charming-linn
chasing snowy cars
cheeky lynn
cheryliciously glam
clean and cute
cyclist-mad bass
darling dominic
feisty jing
fellow ditz-sista/porkSTAR
hail mary!
hell's kitchen
hero on the beach
h-Euge heart
hunky lenny
lipgloss queen
little cheryl
live n learn, baby
lolita lou
loony loon
mr popular
musically dan
m y s t j
phringe
princess tania
roger smurf
runaway pigeon
sabotage king jeremiah
sibling angst1
sibling angst2
spector dan
spunky tian
steffy bunny
sun-sunzzz
teeny wee-nee
weeeee, leonard!
yangtze yang'en

frivolous pursuits

for shallow ppl
for very geeky ppl
for the truly bored
spun prose
binary thoughts
past imprints
some stamps
montage of images
other memories

mulling over

And there were phlegmatic souls.