Monday, August 25, 2008

while i lie sick in bed, as gloomy as one can be

I've started practising piano again. Well, that's not exactly true, since I only practised semi-seriously on Friday and haven't touched the piano since, but it's a start.

So I revived the Scriabin, that which I hold so dear to my heart, and as I played through it, I could hear my teacher in London dictating to me, do this, do that, fingerwork here, keep the 2 against 3 more precise, along with the weathered touch of abused Steinways, the dangerous air she carries around with her (Bulgarians are very fiery, don't you know), and with it, the taste of winter, the scent of tobacco, and the weight of innumerable (often very painful) hours spent in the name of chasing perfection.

I am determined to practise piano more often, for my fingers are so weak that it breaks my heart. But it's not going to be easy. For one thing, all my time goes into preparing for lessons (this entails reading many articles and trying to digest them), coming up with worksheets and answer scheme, marking, coaching students, going through their harmony portfolio, etc etc, not to mention the detested other subjects that I have to teach, and many other nonsensical things that a teacher has to do in order not to get a D grading. Which is counter-productive, if you know what I mean.

I miss so many things from my days at Kings. Not that I am not reconciled to the loss, you know, but there is still hope that something will be worked out in the near future.

We will see, but through seeing, will probably never see.

blueprint

I will like to spend my days, as though they are my own, which I mostly end up doing in halves, for duty beckons, and I am answering its clarion call. Soon enough! I am also a veteran procrastinator.

fresh monodies

strange days are upon us/me.
as i see and not see, as i hear and not hear
5 min break.
rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr
just so to say.
because, (not allowed)
I have relocated to another table in the staffroom...
20/20 hindsight.
the first week of work
kitchen adventures

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cyclist-mad bass
darling dominic
feisty jing
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hail mary!
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live n learn, baby
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sibling angst1
sibling angst2
spector dan
spunky tian
steffy bunny
sun-sunzzz
teeny wee-nee
weeeee, leonard!
yangtze yang'en

frivolous pursuits

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for very geeky ppl
for the truly bored
spun prose
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past imprints
some stamps
montage of images
other memories

mulling over

And there were phlegmatic souls.